I'm still not used to Gabriel being back here. I find it hard to believe though. It was always easy to talk to him and stuff now is isn't... I feel like crying sometimes just infront of everyone and not care about my image but I can't not anymore. I don't feel like going anywhere but just stay at home. Now that school started, it's even worse. I don't even feel like talking to anyone. Sigh, but I can't. I got to keep smiling and keep talking.
I felt good yesterday though. Just eating my Feifei Wanton Mee and buying groceries at PP. So chill~ I finally get to get a bite of my sushi again but not satisfying enough.

Sushi is like a killer. It reminds me of him. Reminds me of the promise that he make but its all broken now. And I'm quite sure he already forgot about it. I feel stabbing my brains so that I can stop thinking. Anyway, in order to put a stop to all these shits I put aside my ego and asked him if I got a chance. Since he say no, then okay it's final. I just didn't expect it to happen so fast.